Flowing

My shedding project (aka Let Go 2008) is still underway. As I uncover objects, I also uncover winding and knotted emotional attachments -- layers of things to be shed. I have bags upon bags of clothes waiting to go to Goodwill and this weekend I'm diving in again, this time with a sharper blade, to see not only what can be let go, but what should be let go.

I've said before that I'm only keeping what I love, but as I look at my stuff I still see quite a few things that I don't love. They're here as a sort of backup -- pants to wear when the pants I want to wear are in the laundry, dresses that may fit again one day. I'm cutting the cords to these things this weekend because energetically, they're really getting me down.

I wore my favorite skirt today.

 

I love the fabric and the hem, the way it flows (Even though I did discover midway through the morning that it's completely see-thru. Oops. Sorry, workplace and people driving down Third Street in the noonday sun. I hope you enjoyed the show.) I actually hesitated before putting it on this morning because it's Thursday and I was only going to work, then a little lightbulb sparked above my head.

This "save favorite things for special occasions" mentality has been a major contributer to my collection of garments that I don't need. It's like buying an expensive candle then never burning it, a hesitation to enjoy what is most enjoyable.

I'm only just now making the connection between what I've been saying and what I've been doing--or seeing where the connection has been misfiring. It's a subtle form of self-deprivation to put the favorite skirt on a special hanger then never wear it out into the world.

Why not, I asked myself, feel beautiful and flowy on a Thursday? Why not feel beautiful and flowy everyday? Special occasions have warranted my best but not the ongoing occasion of my life. Changing that way of thinking seems like a good way to change everything.

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[Tami]

The de-clutter shows I have watched all say to throw out the things you can no longer wear. I think you are doing the right thing. Which Goodwill will you be visiting?? ;)